The Ontology of Impending Fatherhood
You do not know me because you had never met me as I am, but will meet me as I will be. I’ve lived at least three lives so far, so odds are by the time you are able to read and comprehend this I will have become someone else. I look back on the old versions of me through a thick fog, I see the manifestations of those people, in photographs and long ago email correspondences, but the inner...
Tomorrow I will find out whether L’s pregnancy is healthy and whether there is more than one baby on the way. How exactly do you prepare for that kind of appointment? I am reminded of the time at St. Michael’s Hospital when the doctor, treating L for a then undiagnosed burst cyst, thought perhaps it was an entropic pregnancy and told us rather nonchalantly that she will return with...
Once upon a time, in some out of the way corner of that universe which is...– On Truth and Lies in a Nonmoral Sense (1873) - Nietzsche
The Neverthelessness of Nature
I was terrified as a child by an episode of Swiss Family Robinson where, with inexplicable urgency, the island became overrun by ants. It was an establishing shot that burnt into my memory, there in wide a teeming blanket of them chewing through the soft lining of the jungle. Even then, I considered how strange it is that in nature something as horrific as that could happen out of balance with...
Could it think, the heart would stop beating.– Fernando Pessoa - The Book of Disquiet
There are three paradigms to my growth as a writer thus far, the dawn of email correspondence through which I over time developed in toto a consciousness, then my first introduction to livejournal by Elizabeth W. sometime around 2000 which spilled over into blogging for a couple years after, and now, with the very imprint of this post, a new, third paradigm is consecrated. I put a lot of weight...