Beware the Ides of March

Approximately a month from now, around the time of March 20th, Greece is poised to default, triggering a CDS crisis that could spread like an economic contagion far greater than that which occurred in 2008.  The signs of this have not been buried but written prominently in reliable news sources with daily regularity. I don’t claim to be an economist and I have my share of doubt of the whole profession (courtesy of N.N. Taleb’s critique), but with the macro-level problems that are clear to understand (infinite growth colliding with finite resources, the lack of legislation passed to correct the problems evident in 2008 economic crisis) added to what seems to be occurring in the continual downgrading of value of European assets, not least of all the PIIGS countries like Greece, there is, at the very least, grave concern over how well global economies will fare if this first domino drops.    

I do not claim to know how this is going to play out, it is very possible that some last minute, unforeseen benefactor will bail out Greece, if only to keep their economy running a bit longer.  I accept the unknown in the equation, though I choose not to live my life in utter faith of its panacea.  I am not obsessed or dumbstruck with fear, in the interim period I have done what I could to shelter from the storm and try to be self-sufficient.  My heart is not wholly in it, I still cling to the arts and the aristocratic pleasantries of the life I am accustom to.  I monitor the situation and try to respond accordingly.  This week I bought a propane stove-top burner one uses typically on a camping trip.  I am still significantly lacking in alternative energy sources, an expense I have not yet felt motivated to pursue.  The winter has been mild, and I have enjoyed time spent with friends and family.  

Maybe it is the books I read, the movies I watch: I think about ethics a lot even if I am not, myself, virtuous.  I have lived inside a bubble without much in the way of tangible threat of death.  The survival instinct dulls from lack of attention and the body gets fat and the mind gets soft; ethics is moth-balled, a dusty idea not qualitatively understood.  We have been told to care more about what other people think of us, and other people are mostly thinking about what a bought culture tells them to.  But ethics will once again surely matter when the bubble pops, when the invisible barriers between people vanish, and we are forced to live together on less, with greater threat of death.  History has no precedent for this experiment, cut away from survival and ethics and brought together, globally, into a world where all the prison cells unlock and the warden is dead.  How will man fare when put to this test?  Ideologies will flare up in the vacuum, the weak-minded need something to hold fast to, something bigger than themselves.  

I do not have a favorable opinion of mankind.  I have lived a fantasy that was foolishly squandered by the greed of a few.  The reality is not pretty.  It is a wilderness out there, a wilderness that can define you and make you a real person at last, but it is not pretty. If the wave crashes, all the pretty things will soon be gone.  Life with the friction of death ignites ethics, that whisper I have had in my head all this time.  We tell ourselves stories to remind us what happens when we are forced to live.

I have been living surreptitiously through stories, feeling hunger and dying and tragedy in a heightened but contained environment.  I sense what may happen from these sojourns into the imagination (woven into my memory too, a story of my near-death).  I am stirred awake.  I have felt a thousand deaths.  I have witnessed a thousand acts of heroism and a thousand acts of cowardice, and learned what it is to be alive and restless.  I have had 9/11 and Lehman Brothers puncture my dreams and let the urgency of reality seep through.    

Maybe I have seen too many movies.  This is also possible.  But I have seen firsthand the thinness of civility, the diet of decency, the plague of egoism.  Old culture will cope, the culture that has lived through hard times, it is this new culture set adrift I worry about; the culture of entitlement, the deterioration of community, these jackals in the making.  There is a guy who wrote a book about his firsthand experience in Argentina when it recently went through a full-blown economic collapse.  It was Hobbesian chaos, the crime rates soared so high that the prisons reached capacity and it was anything goes on the streets.  Who is to say what any of us would do if they barricaded ours banks and left us high and dry. I imagine the worst, but not without some justification; lest nature shows us what it is truly made of.

On the Brink

Something is happening on the periphery of our lives. Listen closely and you’ll hear the splintering sound of history as it gives way beneath a generation of neglect. So long as we stay perfectly still in our homes, and keep on the same route to work and schedule meetings for future dates, maybe we can fool history into forgetting. There is an unshakable calm on the brink, the trickle down of ease is infectious.  I am a believer in make-believe but there are pressure points of facts not to be ignored and this is one of them.

We are living the adage: collapse happens slowly and then all at once.  Several days ago the head of S&P rating agency said he expects Greece to default soon, Fitch wagers a date: March 20th.  A prospect that has been in the making for years, a significant event that happens a room apart from our busy lives.  Greece falls, so does Europe, so does the United States, and then the floor gives way.  2008 was a dress rehearsal, as was the Great Depression.    

Maybe I am wrong.  There are always more factors than reason can consider, maybe the game is rigged well enough to mitigate disaster, I can only go on the information I find.  If what we know is a combination of lived-in experience and abstract reason, to make the connection to really feel the path in our veins is to close the valve of what we have lived, this pleasant playground our parents devised to keep us out of harm’s way. Only through our grandparents and on the odd Remembrance Day do we glimmer that far away truth, the tattered flag of human depravity that lets fruit spoil on the vine.  

Nowadays to even prepare for hard times is considered eccentric.  To stockpile food is an affront to the unquestioning faith in stocked grocery shelves.  It is to give into granola habits, the pathogens of pacifists, hippies and new age prisms.  Survival has become passé.  The force of this super-imposed reality is palpable, it pushes back with each breech of the niche: deny not the granite buildings nor the poise of bankers, media evangelists barking their talking points from every podium in every direction, keep calm and carry on, everything wound tightly around an unsustainable belief.  Should I be judged for giving in under this constant propaganda, the propaganda of my parents and your parents and the found logic of growing up in a make-believe commune?

Of course I should.  There is no excuse.  I am out of shape body and mind.  The standard I need to live up to is not the status-quo, but what my awareness convicts me of.  There is a coward in me, letting things happen on the wishful thinking that the world will sort itself out.  The drunken hobo waits for the world to pick him up.  In bleary-eyed abandon there is no future save the obstacle immediately in front.  The sober are not so dissimilar.  Leave someone else holding the bag, let the President figure it out.  It is not like the word democracy means anything, anymore.  We learn it dryly in textbooks. The Draft, soup kitchens, they are footnotes, stories.  The coward drinks the world away, the coward comforts himself in stories.  The coward pleads “knowing is not the same as starving”.  Not until the deadline becomes the breadline, nor the last vestige of the fantasy fades from exhaustion and hunger and panic, and we, against our will, become history once again.